True Friendship???

The funny thing about this blog is that I wrote this listening to a very funny song and yet it was not at all funny. A very close friend of mine went through this phase when she actually lost all faith in friendship. At moment I consoled her saying that ‘I understand your pain’. I should have thought before saying that because I never knew her pain at all and when I went through the same thing I realized how strong she had been compared to me.

Its easy to get over a heartbreak caused by your girl but a heartbreak caused by a friend stays with you forever. No matter how things change - for the better or worse - you never are able to get proper reasons as to why your friend betrayed you. When a friend hurts you, it hits the heart and for a moment u don’t realize that a person who had been a brother to you can actually do that to you but as the grim reality sinks in you break down.

Don’t know if I am advertising hatred but yes there is something you just cannot forgive
And this thing was one such thing. He who I thought was my best friend, my homie and my reason for thinking positive was actually just a phantasm in the mist, just a shadow which left me in darkness.

I always thought I am a traveler. I am traveling through time and a place called life. Everyday I have new encounters, I meet people, see things but they don’t amuse me as much as they used to at one point of time. There is this strange claustrophobic feeling I have in a crowd, a feeling that in this rat race everyone is thinking about his own benefit. I don’t feel that I belong here. This is not what I expected life to throw at me and this is certainly not what I thought would happen.

Is life that harsh that it doesn’t even spare the best of friends to be free of ego clashes or is it that we as humans are two self-centered to think anything beyond personal benefit. I know there are two sides to any coin but I need to know why did I go through this even without being the person who was involved in this. How was I responsible for doing wrong to you? How I was responsible for what you went through and why am seen as The Abel in our story of brotherhood???

I know you have no answer to me. I know that deep inside you know that whatever you did was wrong. Deep inside you know that you are a victim of your insecurities. You are a victim of your own mind games.

Somehow I feel sad for you because I am trying to wonder who the biggest loser here is. Maybe just maybe this time I am not the actual one who lost out on things. If you have time to reflect upon what happened, do reflect back and if you feel it should have been you writing this then let me know. Good Day…Brother!!!